this daunting nature prevents you from being impulsive, expressive and just writing.
i stopped writing on this when my close friend died in a tragic bike accident. i did not know what to say. how to say it. how to express my hurt. how to show gratitude to him and his life lived. i started numerous blogs, which are all sitting in my draft folder waiting to be recaptured and completed.
so unfortunately i'm realising... i can't really express it.. (yet). i loved my friend... full stop. i miss him. and it hurts. as for what else to say, i'm at a loss and really don't feel anything i say is good enough to express how awesome a guy he was, to me, and others.
i know one day in the future, i hope that i will be able to write it all down. for now... i can't.
I pray for strength to continue your writing Cynthia. Sometimes just putting down your feelings can really help in the healing stage. My beautiful boy was such an inspiration and he would want to continue to inspire you even though he is gone. I look forward to reading your posts one day when you have the strength. All my love, Helen xoxoxo
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