this daunting nature prevents you from being impulsive, expressive and just writing.
i stopped writing on this when my close friend died in a tragic bike accident. i did not know what to say. how to say it. how to express my hurt. how to show gratitude to him and his life lived. i started numerous blogs, which are all sitting in my draft folder waiting to be recaptured and completed.
so unfortunately i'm realising... i can't really express it.. (yet). i loved my friend... full stop. i miss him. and it hurts. as for what else to say, i'm at a loss and really don't feel anything i say is good enough to express how awesome a guy he was, to me, and others.
i know one day in the future, i hope that i will be able to write it all down. for now... i can't.
