Too many goodbye’s…. and I’m exhausted!

A farewell from Team GA - gonna miss you guys!

I had my farewell this weekend, w close friends coming to chat, eat brownies ‘n choc-caramel slice, and avoid getting drenched by the rain. It made me realise how much I’m going to miss home, especially the thought of never returning to cozy lil’ Canberra (my life for the last 23 yrs). 

I also have had farewell from my GA Soccer squad and we had team photos and they gave me a signed soccer ball. I feel famous! I’m going to miss my work – especially the people! I’ve had fun with the social club shenanigans… not to mention the many chats at the café that has allured me to into a strict coffee addiction.

Tomorrow is my last day, and I’m having another farewell morning tea – if I can bear it, and then farewell from church on Sunday… and then I should be right to have said goodbye to most people here… epic?!

A week to go and fly out of here…

Thanks for all your kind encouragement and support! I really could not have made this decision without you. You are all more than welcome to visit me along my travels!

Love you Aussies!!! Keep in touch!!

packing up...

I had a crazy night last night. I have to pack up my room to move into a smaller room in my house. I told them I was ‘moving out’ in December so technically I still have to move out of my room so my other housemate can move in and get settled.

So, I just sold my desks and gave away my bed and bookshelves. And all of a sudden, as I packed my books in boxes – the realisation hit – I’m leaving and when I come back I may have nothing and be dirt poor. Travelling is not cheap.

So while I’m having a sook about losing my possessions… the words of Jesus entered my head “If you wish to be complete, go and sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow Me."

It shook me. As I desire to help the poor to help those suffering from injustice. And yet, I had got caught up in trying to hold onto things and have a ‘safety net’ to fall back on. I don’t want to live in comfort or have a safety net – but trust God that he will provide for all my needs. This is really hard!

I realised as well, I’ll be coming back to Australia after spending 3 months in India – and my mindset will *hopefully* be completely different anyway – so to come back to ‘wealth’ is going to be a massive shock to the system anyway.

It is still very overwhelming. I’m starting to make decisions on my own for what to do in the future, and the possibility of me slipping up seems quite high!

I admire my friend Sam – who packed up her things and left for England – found a job and is quite content with no massive worries. I need to just trust God and hope for the best.

I’m going to miss my friends – so I hope you keep in contact and remember to write letters or emails! I think the lack of ‘constant flow’ of friends visiting and going out is going to be weird. Hopefully – I’ll make some new ones in the US and India….

Unsettling.

Mexmas Party

Today - I'm celebrating xmas Mexican style! We have enchiladas, guacamole, mexican choc flan w mango, bunuelos (mexican doughnuts).... with margaritas and more! what more could you wish for?


So Feliz Navidad!


Merry Christmas everyone :) 

i've had quite a few friends ask for an update on my blog & considering i've had no internet... well kind of makes things hard. 

but, for now... i've stolen my house-mates net for a while - so quick update! 

i've decided to fly away....

i've been feeling a little 'unsettled'. despite the fact i'm 'settled' quite comfortably in an amazing house with 4 girls who are also amazing. i've got a really good job, which pays well & allows me to buy lots of ingredients to make new dishes. i've been enjoying making new recipes, baking, learning to drum, playing soccer (as always), laughing, getting into new music... and well being quite comfortable. 

but for some reason... this just isn't enough for me. i don't really want to get 'comfortable'. i want to explore the world, challenge myself, live out-of-my-comfort-zone. 

So next year... sometime in march/april? Who knows my plans seem to change as the sun sets and rises. but i'm off to see my family in the US. get to know them. get to know my history. see america as an adult. work. get tips from my aussie accent. travel and hope that friends like you... come visit. and then... india..

the song i've been listening to A LOT!

idiot.

sometimes i really wish i would actually bite my tongue. today is that day.

books and revelation

don't you love it when you pick up a book/books and it just hits exactly what you're going through. well thats been for me this week. i've been having a rough few days and so picked up a book to read called "a daughters dream" and another book which i can't remember the name and both have helped to a degree. 


one is about a girl who is lost in the world - which is kind of where i'm at at the moment. trying to find my place here. i sat in a seminar with a bunch of graduates spouting off their achievements and their successes and how they were there because it was something they were passionate about. do i dare to dream and hope one day i too will get my dream job. i wish i had a simple "doctor"/"teacher" kind of degree... but instead i do one that involves competing against the masses, little money, and a lot of volunteering. for me who hates making decisions and generally likes to stick to something once she's there... this is making the whole applying thing a little difficult. 


the other book talked about how we find it hard to love others, when we can't love ourselves. but seriously... how do you love yourself without being egotistical or arrogant? i know i hit myself pretty hard sometimes, but to be honest i deserve it. i have stuffed up in many decisions but i'm the only one to blame. i hate the fact i've lashed out at others for the sole reasson that  i've been angry at myself and needed an outlet. 


anyway... the books have been good. made me get into action in some areas of my life.